Monday, January 16, 2012

A Big Thank You To You All

This blog now has 536 'Followers'. I'm really grateful for that. Thank you, folks!

I started this blog to share the things I love -- movies, books, music, illustration, graphics, painting, and people whose take on the world is somewhat unique. Like AIDS, I like infecting humans with stuff they won't be able to shake so easily.

I'm not quite sure how often a 'Follower' of this blog drops in, but, since I'm a 'Follower' of a stack of blogs myself, I figure no answer to that question is going to fit all.

 I'm pleasantly surprised that I have a mix of male and female readers because, traditionally, much of the content I post has been considered male-oriented. It gives me optimism to see women (and men, of course, my 'Followers', not approaching pornographic material from a position of offended hysteria. Despite the truth that I derive some sexual stimulation from some of the sexual material I post, my primary reason for posting it is that I believe it has serious artistic merit. I believe that it deserves consideration, or debate, and I certainly believe that it contributes to a better understanding of our darkest, deepest selves.

It is the deep, dark self that I am most fascinated with. Since you're a casual reader and/or a 'Follower' of the blog, I'll confidently assume that you're also interested in the deep, dark self.

From childhood, our deep, dark self is a friend and an enemy. It gives us comfort, satisfaction, and euphoria, like a drug, but it also isolates us from others, and  when you're living in a world that is working hard to bump you onto the grid, the isolation can be painful.

I started to like horror and the bizarre because it took the edge off my loneliness.  It felt like a friend who'd somehow avoided the grid. It didn't attempt to lure me with lies and empty rhetoric, and it didn't molest me while smothering me with kisses. Horror movies, bizarre images, books of the fantastique, literature of dubious parentage, and what my parents called weird stuff, got me through the long night of childhood. These treasures were a warm hand to cling to, a suggestion that my life didn't have to be a carbon copy of lives endured by others. I had choices. I'd have to fight for them like a fucking pit bull, sure, and nothing would last, but at least there was something else on the horizon.

I hope this blog is a reliable haven of pulp for you, an organic forum for material that gets dismissed elsewhere, totally ignored, or stripped of its worth by mass media with big agendas. I hope it's also a place of truth, where you can proclaim your love for the most marginalized of diamonds, or your disgust for that which all others love.

Thank you for deeming this humble gallery of a thousand voices worthy of your time.

For reasons I can't explain, I feel obliged to provide metaphorical shelter to the cultural miscreant in you, and I take my obligations seriously.

So, be yourself while you still have time, and fuck the rest sideways.

"There's nothing to mourn about death any more than there is to mourn about the growing of a flower. What is terrible is not death but the lives people live or don't live up until their death. They don't honor their own lives, they piss on their lives. They shit them away. Dumb fuckers. They concentrate too much on fucking, movies, money, family, fucking. Their minds are full of cotton. They swallow God without thinking, they swallow country without thinking. Soon they forget how to think, they let others think for them. Their brains are stuffed with cotton. They look ugly, they talk ugly, they walk ugly. Play them the great music of the centuries and they can't hear it. Most people's deaths are a sham. There's nothing left to die."

--Charles Bukowski

The Captain Is Out to Lunch and the Sailors Have Taken Over the Ship, 1998


  1. Thank you for infecting me with your AIDS.

  2. I've always loved this blog. I've been reading it since 2007. That was around a time where I was getting into the "weird stuff" rather heavily. Thanks to your blog I've heard about films, books, and art that I probably wouldn't have heard about elsewhere. I'm not as enthusiastic about those things these today, but I still search for it when I need something that resonates or is fresh. I'm more into science, politics, and history these days, but I always surprise my friends that share those interests with all the "fucked up" - as they call it - art, horror and lesser-known genre films I show them. Most of them don't know what to think of it and even argue about it with me. In A Glass Cage seems to disturb everyone to the point of indignant moral outburst, except for you and me!

    It's sad to think that loneliness, more than likely, is an indelible ingredient to the pursuit of all things "off the grid." To be interested in those things usually takes patent honesty, which many people can't handle. Since loneliness is an unavoidable effect of society for part of the population, it is unavoidable, and necessary, that people find truth in the weird, the strange, the deranged, the bizarre, and even the unwholesome.

    Thanks for keeping it alive!

  3. "So, be yourself while you still have time, and fuck the rest sideways."

    - that's gonna be my new motto! Thanks for your blog, M. I know of no other film maker who bothers (or could) write a blog like yours. But then again, I assume you're a fan first and foremost who then became a film maker. Yours is the most well written and interesting blog I know of. You're a poet in everything you write about, whether it be films, freaks with 5 legs, or bizarre porn. Keep up the great work!

  4. As a short time reader and first time commenter, I just wanna say thanks for sharing your passions. It's always a damn fine read and you've added so much to my ever-growing must-see movie list.

    Also, is that 4th pic punch-in-the-gut porn??? Damn, I love the Japanese. Every time I think I've seen it all, they come up with something that pushes my moral horizons just a little further out.

  5. Jesse W -- Thanks for your comments. Illuminating. It is difficult for some people to shake off traditional views on anything not universally embraced. Hysteria has become a common reaction to non-mainstream culture. Good on you for at least offering IN A GLASS CAGE to your friends.

    There is raw truth in the 'unwholesome'. Afterall, it is its truth that makes it unwholesome to many.


    Jack J -- Thank you so much for your comments. As you are a blogger of a a unique and rich cultural abode yourself, I'm happy to throw much of this praise back to you. I was a fan before I starting making films, and my passion endures. Recently, my blogging has decreased as I've been working on a couple of novels, but the urge to share surfaces regularly.


    Jon -- Thanks! Happy to contribute to your lists. If you have any suggestions, feel free, of course.

    Yes, that video cover is an example of gut-punch porn, a relatively new sub-genre. I find it fascinating because it's just so unusual. Isn't sexuality mind-boggling?

  6. :) i am obliged to write a big thank you to you! for you have created a lighthouse with this blog at the coast a vast ocean of sanitized mediocrity...a beacon to remind us that their is islands out there that can provide us a port of our interests that embrace the chthonic as much the tranquil a balance that is often forgotten or misunderstood. thank you i have enjoyed reading this page for years now and hope to read it as the years go on. I have only just started to comment lately as you might have noticed.

    ps. only reason i have been "anon" is because i do not have a blog,journal,aim, ect ect

  7. Bravo! and congratulations on an great post.

  8. Anon -- I like to share the islands whenever I can. I'm glad you're finally commenting. Comments keep the blood flowing.


    John B -- Thank you for your kind message and for becoming a follower. Much appreciated.

  9. Ooh! Getting her Goat's gonna be my new avatar!

    Anyway, I feel eternally obliged for helping to steer me headlong into the abyss of weird stuff. It's always fun. Hope this new year's better and less stressful than last.


  10. Phantom, of all the com-girl-ters who have ever left com-girl-ts on this site who would you say is the wittiest, cleverest, and funniest of them all ?, i actually think its the person who i`m going to spend all of eternity with in paradise, i just wondered w-HEATHER you agreed ?.